When I found the black dress for my Christmas party I was super excited.
It was a bit of a departure for me as far as dresses go. Tight and short black dresses typically just exacerbate the genetic betrayal that is my legacy; however, this particular dress looked pretty great. The top was black, but sparkly and I felt like the best way to make it a Christmas dress would be red accessories. I had this mental picture of red glittery shoes and red and gold bangles to match and really pull it all together. Because you can’t wear bright red shoes with a black dress and gold jewelry. Red has to be in the jewelry, too, in order to pull the eyes back up from the shoes.
I had a very clear picture in my head.
I looked for red glitter shoes and kept coming up empty.
So I settled for the gold glitter shoes and thought “Well, I can still do the red and gold bangles and earrings and it’ll keep it Christmas. Then I’ll just take out the red for New Year’s.”
I was fine with that plan. And then the red shoes found me. So I got them.
And that is how the Great Hunt for Red and Gold Bangles started.
Endless hours of walking from store to store only to be disappointed.
I finally found bracelets that were not quite what I had in mind, but they would work.
As I was leaving the mall, a necklace at a store that specializes in silver caught my eye. Now that my red and gold bangle mission was over, I allowed myself to go into the silver store. (Because, why would I go into a silver store when hunting for gold?)
I noticed that the store had branched out. There were many more colourful necklaces in there than I remembered and I was slowly pulled deeper and deeper into the store. (It’s actually not a very deep store, but it was a slow pull.)
And, there, along the back wall, were bangles. Every color of bangle. Red. Gold. Green. Blue. Purple. RED. GOLD.
I cried. (Ok, I didn’t CRY; my eyes filled with tears, but I held them back.)
I know that not having the exact accessories you want is a total “1st World, White Girl” problem, but that is not really the point.
I had a dream. A picture in my head.
I had been content with the gold shoes, but then I got the red ones I’d dreamed about. And I had been content with the red and gold bracelets I had JUST bought thinking that I was never going to find the bracelets I had dreamed about. I was still excited.
But then my dream came true.
It was such a little thing.
A small and simple wish, but it happened. And right about the time I was giving up. Right about the time I was settling for less.
Honestly? It felt like a personal Christmas gift sent directly from God. *blush*
THAT is why I cried.
Because if he is willing to give me my silly wish of red shoes and red and gold bangles, then there’s a good chance he’d be happy to give me some of my “real” wishes, too.